Thursday, September 25, 2008

Atonement

But What Really Happened?

Book/Film Review of Atonement by Ian McEwan (for those in the first two rows who have not read the book, or seen the film – there will be spoilers!)































I’ve never been so fully engrossed in a novel since Birdsong, and this being another focus on the Second World War (a subject matter I find most interesting to read about), Atonement is a brilliant and poignant masterpiece. This is the second work I’ve read by Ian McEwan (the first, Enduring Love). In a plan to confuse and dispel readers, McEwan has written a very thought-provoking and challenging book.

Establishing the conclusion of the novel, Atonement turns out to be narrated by a character in the story: Briony Tallis. This leaves some questions; is the whole story just a fantasy fabricated by Briony, or is this a true account? Is this the book, the final draft that will get published when she dies?

Her first-hand experiences are somewhat abundant, with depictions of some beautifully poetic scenery and vivid imagery, which at times helps to create a certain tension in a climactic moment where you just want to read past it, but this sometimes wears thin. This is something the publishers at Horizon in the book comment on Briony’s draft as being “static”, and leaving “no sense of forward movement”.

That letter is, in fact, rather useful if you want a good in-depth analyse of the book. “The crystalline present moment is of course a worthy subject in itself, especially for poetry”. Is this McEwan digressing his own literary techniques? Or is he purposefully writing in the style of his own character that writes stories “owing to the techniques of Mrs Woolf”? Genius.

The story is quite depressing to some extent, in that the two main protagonists meet their death at the peak of their lives. This, however, is veiled by our narrator. There is hope and the message she conveys to the reader is that love prevails through hope. The two lovers are kept alive by the storyteller, to atone her crime of wrongly accusing Robbie Turner of attacking an innocent girl; this being her “act of kindness”, despite the unforgivable act which dearly cost them.

There is a lot of realism in the form of graphic imagery, real-life places, and the subject of war. The authenticity of the war depiction is as close as you can get, particularly in the hospital scenes, where we get to comprehend the graphic injuries of the soldiers, via Briony’s first-hand experiences. Disease and death also affects reputable characters throughout the book, which is what makes reading McEwan novels so unique – expect the unexpected!

There was a passage I really liked where Briony compared every novel she had written to writing a modern piece of music, and that wonderful satisfaction of holding your own creation in your fingertips. She wrote a story, and though the age of characters and plots was over, much like the age of tonality and structure is over in music, she elucidates, “A modern novelist could no more write characters or plots than a modern composer could a Mozart Symphony”. It’s like you’re just rewriting the rules of past techniques, so all you can do is let art be art and let the imagination work itself through real sensations, and real human emotions of the human mind: “the conscious mind as a river through time”. This quote alludes to the closing pages of her novel, which will exist only in the mind. All great stories are generated by the creative human mind. This is a story of that process, and there is of course, much beauty in that. Love is the essence of the novel, not just between Cecilia Tallis and Robbie Turner, but for family relationships, for country, for art, and for storytelling.

The end really delivers home. There’s a sense of despondency felt about the growing up and growing old, the loss of loved ones, the loss of innocence and youth, and the decline of health, but then there’s the experience, wisdom and memories that comes with old age, which half balances that out. I feel that because Briony has lived to old age, she has had to endure the guilt of her crime, and perhaps the only way out of that was to live a fantasy life in her storytelling. This, she explains, would let “the lovers survive and flourish”. I would like to have found out more about what happened to Briony after the war, up until 1999.

I spoilt my own surprise by watching the film before reading the book because by the time I reached the part where Briony meets Cecilia and Robbie at the flat, my mind was fixed on the obvious, right up to the end. I desperately wanted to feel surprise, pathos, or something heartfelt, when she repentantly declares, “Robbie Turner died of Septicaemia at Bray Dunes” and “Cecilia was killed in September of the same year by the bomb that destroyed Balham Underground”. It’s a brilliant and powerful twist, and it struck me while watching the film, and it would probably tug the heartstrings of anyone reading the book for the first time. Nevertheless, I cannot disguise any sense of suspicion to wonder whether Briony is actually telling the truth here. Is she lying to conceal their whereabouts? To keep them alone, together, as lovers? But then she says, “what sense or hope or satisfaction could a reader draw from such an account?” The truth is imperfection. Death is an inevitable oblivion. Only in the mind can a happy end be told, until that mind withers, then one will only exist in the imagination.

I think Joe Wright’s adaptation really did the book justice. Firstly, I couldn’t imagine anyone else playing the roles of Cecilia and Robbie, other than Keira Knightley and James McAvoy. It’s like McEwan had them in mind when he was writing the novel, for instance, when Briony describes Cecilia and Robbie in the flat – these are the most vivid descriptions. I also liked Wright’s interpretation of Briony’s final testimony, with the TV interview regarding her book, instead of the letter. The music couldn’t have been more suited than Dario Marianelli’s magnificent score. Together, ‘Elegy for Dunkirk’ and Wright’s direction of that famous war scene surely marks as that one of the best unedited sequences in film history. I was enchanted to hear Clair de Lune added in the soundtrack, as it is one of my favourites, and I feel it gives a perfectly fitting aura to the film.

There is a fair amount of 'Englishness' akin to Atonement and I will always keep a devout soft spot for this book. It is set in the beautiful setting of Surrey (my home county) and namedrops a few places in London, with its war history and noble landmarks. Also, I loved Briony’s wistful imagination, her eye for detail and the way she leant all her weight on one foot – I occasionally do that. Though I am frustrated by her poor decision-making – she was foolish not to tell the truth about the incident, and live a lie for a whole five years.

Atonement begins the first chapter basked in a theme of innocence, portraying not so much “The Trials of Arabella”, as Briony writes, but the trials and tribulations of growing up. The story ends on a theme of experience, and the emancipation of death – this is evident in her mood telling the news of her inveterate illness. Suffice to say, Briony is the indirect cause of Cecilia and Robbie’s deaths, not just physically, but in love, so she goes about putting it right – by re-establishing their love as it always was, or how it was meant to be. She knows nothing will be enough to convey her regret, except her conjured fantasy, and that’s what will be remembered. And in answer to this review’s title, as 77 year old Briony puts it: “I gave them happiness”.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Feedback




















There is a sound of electricity, an ambience;
Buzzing like an endless whirring chaos
The alien chime that resonates a hum
The dust that bites my eardrum.


And all the time it hangs in the cracks
Behind my human perception is a firewall,
Signals are a soft breeze in a salty sea
Sighs an algorithm in a magnetic prison.

In the deep chasm of hyperspace hell
The swirling loops of tones are teaming
Churning a roar like the earth died screaming,
Singing from the very water, wind, and rocks themselves

These cosmic sensations align
Flicked and fingerprinted by God
In the dust and the chimes
These are the signs.

Sunday, September 07, 2008

I found...

PART 1

...my A-Level English Reading List from a few years back, after rummaging through my drawer. I am hoping to read all these before I die.








































So far = 8




PART 2

...a self-profile from Infant School when I was a wee 10 years old.






























































Sunday, May 18, 2008















So my new favourite band right now is Fleet Foxes. Harmonies, melodies, guitars, reverbbb... they have a really natural and organic sound, like a wind blowing through the trees, which to me is the true beauty of music. They mention some of their influences like traditional music from Ireland to Japan and film scores... which is just awesome. I bought their EP 'Sun Giant' last week and this is a nice passage on the inside sleeve:

"Sometimes when driving, or riding the bus, or walking around in some park, I will try to get an image in my head of what the land around me would have looked like 400 years ago. The same hills, the same landscape, but in my mind I'll cover it in nothing and wonder what it was like to be the first man to chance upon it. This is always useless to me. There is so much wonder in this world, but I always have trouble getting past our influence, our disasters and clumsy systems. And even in those places where there is some real beauty, like down at Golden Gardens, or on the Olympic Peninsula, or my grandparents' cabin in Wenatchee when it's deep in snowdrifts, all I have to do is take one look at the skyline in the distance, or the cement path I'm walking on, or the white car parked in the gravel driveway to take me out of the tenuous illusion and put me back in reality.

We are constantly tethered to some safety line. There is always a lantern, or a map, or a screen, or a cell phone. These things guarantee that whatever experience we're having is just an attempt at connecting to something foreign and old, that it's not real, no matter how real it looks. We've sketched out a new world over the old, and they are in two separate universes. The old is lost despite the remnants of it we see everyday. If properly prepared, one could live entire decades indoors, in a world of their own creation.

Sometimes I'll stay indoors for days
at a time, talking to no one and doing nothing of value. Once I do go outside after a long stretch like that, it still feels fake, like some slide in front of my eyes. At a certain point, I'll have to tell myself, "This is actually real and I am actually here. That dog or building or mountain range in the distance is a real thing inhabiting the same space that I am." I think that must be a very modern sensation, that of having to convince onesself of reality. What a weird feeling.

A very smart and gifted frien
d of mine told me once that music is a kind of replacement for the natural world. That, before civilization or whatever, the world must have seemed a place of such immense wonder and confusion, so terrifying in a way, unthinkably massive and majestic. And that that feeling of mystery and amazement, is somehow hardwired into us. Once the world became commonplace, mapped, and conquered, that mystery left our common mind and we needed something to replace it with and then along came music. I think she's right, music is magic to me, transportative and full of wonder in a way that I have trouble getting from the natural world. All the human things that make the natural world so hard to connect with just aren't there with music.

I don't really know what I"m trying to say with this. It's not good to romanticize a time of great hardship, hardship I've never known and am not conditioned to understand. I'm also not interested in a "back to nature" thing. As nature as it was is gone for the time being and it would take a very big leap of faith and common sense
to ignore that. But, music to me is just as awe-bringing as the world maybe once [was], and I just love it a lot."

Thomas Jefferson
January 2008
New York City


I also like this random passage:

"I kept as still as I could. Nothing happened. I did not expect anything to happen. I was something that lay under the sun and felt it, like the pumpkins, and I did not want to be anything more. I was entirely happy. Perhaps we feel like that when we die and become a part of something entire, whether it is the sun and air, or goodness and knowledge. At any rate, that is happiness: to be dissolved into something complete and great. When it comes to one, it comes as natural as sleep."

Willa Cather, My Antonia


My parents are back from China, and here are two striking images to prove that they had an experience out of this world. Also proves you can still take beautiful pictures armed with just a camera phone...









Saturday, February 23, 2008

Sandy


c. 1991
- February 23, 2008


(17 years young)















S andyface, hound of grace
A ffectionate and dear friend
N umber one waggiest tail end
D own the years you stole our hearts
Y our loving presence will always last

I love you
xo

Friday, February 22, 2008

The Castles of Spain

In between clouds
My pane collects the vapours
In misty shrouds
A blanket of ashen flavours
A vision kissed
My hopes persist

Strewn across the fevered sea
I’m whisked into salty air
An ocean of loved memories
Glazed along the clarion glare
This purgatory of Zen
Is a place forgotten

In a world of parted seams
Frozen are the tides of time
I’m lost in a pearly white dream
I’m towering the city skyline
In mysteries of ambiguities
In obscurities of secrecies

Darkness will soar amid the doom
And bare the devil’s disguise
As beauty beams down from the gloom
And whiteness meets the blackness of our eyes
Open minds will scatter these fantasies
What times! What oddities!

No way of telling
What exists above?
No way of knowing
What speaks my love?
Into absence of the deep abyss
My hopes persist

My Top 100 Albums...

as of February 22nd 2008.

100) Absolution by Muse

99) Summerteeth by Wilco

98) Discovery by Daft Punk

97) Geogaddi by Boards of Canada

96) The Velvet Underground & Nico by The Velvet Underground & Nico

95) Odyssey And Oracle by The Zombies

94)
Rejoicing In The Hands by Devendra Banheart

93)
Our Endless Numbered Days by Iron & Wine

92)
I’m Wide Awake, It’s Morning by Bright Eyes

91) The Pearl by Harold Budd & Brian Eno

90) He Has Left Us Alone But Shafts Of Light Sometimes Grace The

Corners Of The Room
by A Silver Mount Zion

89) Happy Songs For Happy People by Mogwai


88) Silent Shout by The Knife


87) Is This It? by The Strokes


86) Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness by The Smashing Pumpkins


85) Dummy by Portishead


84) Out Of Time by REM


83)
A Night At The Opera by Queen

82) Bridge Over Troubled Waters by Paul Simon & Art Garfunkel


81) Boxer by The National


80) Mezzanine by Massive Attack


79) 69 Love Songs by The Magnetic Fields


78) II by Led Zeppelin


77)
The Man Machine by Kraftwerk

76)
Sung Tongs by Animal Collective

75) The Trials of Van Occupanther by Midlake


74) Daydream Nation by Sonic Youth


73) Abbey Road by The Beatles


72) Down The River Of Golden Dreams by Okkervil River

71) Give Up by Postal Service


70) Ears Will Pop And Eyes Will Blink by Bodies of Water


69)
Friend Opportunity by Deerhoof

68) Person Pitch by Panda Bear

67) Blue Valentine by Tom Waits

66) McCartney by Paul McCartney

65) Imagine by John Lennon

64) Kind Of Blue by Miles Davis

63) Loveless by My Bloody Valentine

62) Louden Up Now by !!!

61) Felt Mountain by Goldfrapp

60) Ys by Joanna Newsom

59) Want One by Rufus Wainwright

58) Hissing Fauna, Are You The Destroyer? by Of Montreal

57) Life Is Full Of Possibilities by Dntel

56) The Sophtware Slump by Grandaddy

55) Are You Experienced? By Jimi Hendrix

54) Blood on the Tracks by Bob Dylan

53) The Soft Bulletin by The Flaming Lips

52) Before The Dawn Heals Us by M83

51) L.S.T. by Shugo Tokumaru

50) ( ) by Sigur Rós

49) If You're Feeling Sinisterby Belle And Sebastian

48) Parachutes by Coldplay

47) Asleep In The Back by Elbow

46) Oh, Inverted World by Shins

45) The Bends by Radiohead

44) Illinois by Sufjan Stevens

43) Hunky Dory by David Bowie

42) Gulag Orkestar by Beirut

41) The Beatles [White Album] by The Beatles

40) Blade Runner by Vangelis

39) Nevermind by Nirvana

38) Surrender by The Chemical Brothers


37) All Things Must Pass by George Harrison

36) The Freewheelin' Bob Dylan by Bob Dylan

35) Teaser And The Firecat by Cat Stevens

34) Five Leaves Left by Nick Drake

33) Blue by Joni Mitchell

32) Moon Safari by Air

31) Plastic Ono Band by John Lennon

30)
Yellow House by Grizzly Bear













29) Drum's Not Dead by The Liars













28)
London Calling by The Clash













27) Pet Sounds by Beach Boys













26) Rumours by Fleetwood Mac














25) After The Gold Rush by Neil Young













24) III by Scott Walker













23) Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division













22) F# A# Oo by Godspeed You Black Emperor













21) The Hour of Bewilderbeast by Badly Drawn Boy













20) Close to the Edge by Yes













19) Birds of My Neighborhood by Innocence Mission













18) Funeral by Arcade Fire Funeral by Arcade Fire
















17) Music Has The Right To Children by Boards Of Canada













16) Low by David Bowie













15) Revolver by The Beatles













14) Homogenic by Bjork















13) Grace by Jeff Buckley











A Brilliant, brilliant album of fantastic songs. Expressive and energetic.




12) Xo by Elliott Smith













11) In the Aeroplane Over the Sea by Neutral Milk Hotel











It's raw... it's simple... it's beautiful... it's a wonderful discovery.




10) The Queen Is Dead by The Smiths











Yet another classic. Full of some of the most emotionally-driven songs in pop music; all powerful and lyrical, making this one of Britain's most iconic albums of all time.



9) Doolittle by Pixies











Doolittle is a fantastic album, again being very influential to many 90's rock bands succeeding them, and this album possibly did it.




8) Kid A by Radiohead














7) Agaetis Byrjun by Sigur Ros Agaetis Byrjun by Sigur Ros











The songs on this album are fantastic. The melodies, slow beats and long chord changes, everything about this album is amazing. Dark, heavy, emotional. My favourites: Ny Batteri and Agaetis Byrjun.



6) Seven Swans by Sufjan Stevens











There are albums you love, and then there are albums you worship.



5) Yankee Hotel Foxtrot by Wilco













4) Dark Side of the Moon by Pink Floyd











A complete album. Pink Floyd's best, and another rock classic, experimenting early electronic sounds with guitars and piano. A revolution. Best bit: when the piano begins on The Great Gig in the Sky.




3) IV by Led Zeppelin











The best Led Zep album you'll ever hear. A legendary album. The epic 'Stairway to Heaven' is a breathtaking song; a classic.



2) O.K Computer by Radiohead












One of Rock's finest albums in recent years but definitely Radiohead's best. Each song blows you away each time you listen to them. Lucky and Paranoid Android, particularly, are the two best songs.



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1) Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band by The Beatles













This album changed my life and rock music as we hear it today. Each song is a masterpiece. Great music from start to finish and includes one of the greatest songs ever composed: A Day in the Life.





Close but no cigar…


The Earth Is Not A Cold Dead Place by Explosions In The Sky

Endtroducing… by DJ Shadow

Sounds of Silver by LCD Soundsystem

Forever Changes by Love

It Was Hot We Stayed In The Water by The Microphones

Arular by M.I.A.

Finally We Are No One by Mum

K by Kula Shaker

The Village Green Preservation Society by Kinks

Exile On Main Street by Rolling Stones

Astral Weeks by Van Morrison

The Joshua Tree by U2

Achtung Baby! by U2

Quiet Is The New Loud by Kings of Convenience

Homesongs by Adem

Closer by Joy Division

The Milk-Eyed Mender by Joanna Newsom

Psychocandy by Jesus And Mary Chain

Gold by Ryan Adams

Stormcock by Roy Harper

Californication by Red Hot Chili Peppers

Rage Against The Machine by Rage Against The Machine

Different Class by Pulp

Parklife by Blur

Think Tank by Blur

that one with live forever on it by Oasis

Music For The Jilted Generation by The Prodigy

It Takes A Nation Of Millions To Hold Us Back by Public Enemy

Stories From The City, Stories From The Sea by PJ Harvey

Without You I'm Nothing by Placebo

The Rise And Fall Of Ziggy Stardust by David Bowie

Wish You Were Here By Pink Floyd

The Wall by Pink Floyd

Never Mind The Bollocks by Sex Pistols

Automatic For The People by REM